SGH Experience Day 3:
Breaking Up
January 29th 2005
Okay I may have fucked up a bit. Basically a few days ago I found out Bianca had been cheating on me for the last few months. She then said her defence was that she’s polyamorous and I said fair enough if that’s your style, but she could’ve at least invited me. I’m mostly pissed off that she beat me to it. I was planning to break up with her anyway.
Anyway, last night I hung out with Rhia [Roe Morris, drummer in SGH] and told her about all of this recent shit and one thing lead to another… it was a Friday night… This morning I woke up next to her. It was awkward now I was sober again, & she’s one of my best mates. I didn’t want that to change so I left in a rush, which she was upset about. That’s why I think I fucked up.
February 17th 2005
[Sweat Glass Halo] is done, or rather, I’m done with SGH. Everything’s a ballache and I’m not having any fun. Elliot’s been pissing me off lately cos he keeps trying to push the songs in a more dancey direction and just tryna electrisize everything. Rhia’s pissing Elliot off by being stubborn and not taking stuff onboard (which I respect). And I’m pissing Rhia off I think by pretending to be normal around her despite the weirdness of the past few weeks. I don’t know what else to say or do with that whole situation. I feel like she despises me but wants something more…?
I can’t be arsed with indecision, so I’m just out of here.
February 17th 2005
[Sweat Glass Halo] is done, or rather, I’m done with SGH. Everything’s a ballache and I’m not having any fun. Elliot’s been pissing me off lately cos he keeps trying to push the songs in a more dancey direction and just tryna electrisize everything. Rhia’s pissing Elliot off by being stubborn and not taking stuff onboard (which I respect). And I’m pissing Rhia off I think by pretending to be normal around her despite the weirdness of the past few weeks. I don’t know what else to say or do with that whole situation. I feel like she despises me but wants something more…?
I can’t be arsed with indecision, so I’m just out of here.
Later that day, Ash would begin writing the first verse and chorus of a song called ‘Y Don’t U Care About Me, Lady?’, with the intention of it being the first single of his solo career.
As you’ll read in the next archived entry below, Ash began recording demos of these newer songs of his in late-February 2005, using a cheap portable recorder with a built-in drum machine, his bass, and a cheap keyboard.
Listen to Ash's demo of the song above here:
Ash Caldaire - Y Don't U Care About Me, Lady?
March 1st 2005
Been doing pretty good ish? since quitting the band, I actually got this shitty Yamaha [PSS-480] keyboard off eBay (looks exactly like the one Hero Genuinely [musician] used), and the little portable recorder I have has a drum machine in it, so I don’t need Rhia… Plan is to make some cool demos and do an Ash album or something. I did a demo of an old song I wrote about Bianca [Ash’s now ex-girlfriend] the other day, I’m pretty happy with it.
I CAN DO MY OWN SHIT, THANKS.